This is something I've spent years mulling over... and tonight it clicked, everything fell into place, if I need to be corrected on any of this, please tell me. I'm looking for truth, and I feel that this is a combination of truth that has lead me to my foundation of surrender, to giving my life, in all it's fullness to lay it on this, this rock that I feel is what God desired. Again, please, correct me if I am wrong in anyway.
The reason for the title is the fact that I struggle with addictions, which I believe I have mentioned on here before. So, now I lay my first block of breaking from addiction, which will lead to breaking down a wall, and laying my life upon the stone that is Christ. Read it... as though I'm talking, for that's how I am writing it.
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The only way then... To be rid of it, is to reject ownership, this does not belong to me, you sign the title off to someone else. But... Not another human, no, too weak, finite, easily swayed, tempted, tossed by the winds and waves of society and culture, even the views of trusted friends and family. No, not human. God, Christ, who already bore them, already paid for them. Willing and eager to sign the title and take ownership. Infinite, all powerful, only bound by His own laws to prove his purity and right to govern and rule as sovereign lord. He cannot be swayed by anything. Otherwise, we'd have no hope, nothing to stand on, faith and purpose would be meaningless. But, He can, He has, and He will govern, rule, defend, strengthen, teach, and guide those that surrender. The basics... Going back to the basics, evidence. Believing in the evidence... gravity...air... We can't see them, cannot truly capture them, but we see their effects on our world, on us, on our day to day lives. Believing in something, not because you see it, but because you have seen the evidence and truth of it's existence, not once, but over and over again daily in the lives of people and you've seen it change and empower and care for them in every area , you see the evidence. Believing in things not seen, but trusting on faith. There is a formula, but only because God is a god of order and there must be a pattern, otherwise everything falls out of place and there is chaos. But man has be trying ever since the fall to build his own formula, but it's always missing an element. God. Even when they try to add the "God-factor" they want it to be controlled and in their power. Thus, they fail. God is unpredictable, except when it comes to his law. He will never go against Himself, or His law. Why? Order. He made order in the first place, thus His order is best. Why? because He knows everything. Why? Cause He created it and thought of it first! The inventor is the only one that truly knows what the invention is for, and it's purpose. He gave us the current order to repair the damage caused by the fall. (Note: which was not the FIRST SIN, it was the FIRST HUMAN SIN. just making that clear. Satan fell before Woman, she wasn't named until after the fall, and Adam fell after woman. Whose fault? ALL THREE. They Chose. Just as we do.)
Jesus was both MAN and GOD and thus the damage which was caused was repaired by Christ because only a man can take the place of another man and Christ was both man and God so He could take the sins of an infinite number of men. Thus, God's law is not broken, but fulfilled. [This last section on the repair of the fall was inspired by Smooth Via in his Sermon "It's Not About You" http://www.takeajourney.or
This puts the choice back in our hands, the choice to follow God or reject Him.
All this is true, but... you can't claim it as truth if you just take my word on it, or repeat it. It's not truth unless it comes from God, if you say "Mike said..." then it may be truth, but you can't prove it cause it came from me. a sinful, finite person. But, if you take those words, and go back to scripture, and say "I want the truth about this..." then you've claimed it and taken responsibility for your own faith. If you don't like what you find, tough, it's still truth. Why? Cause it came from God, who is Truth in it's very essence. Once you truly claim and then accept this reality that what God says is truth, and can be trusted, then you hand it back to it's creator and say "Thank you, what shall I do with Your Truth, which You chose to reveal to me so as to make yourself known to one who couldn't have possibly have understood it on his own." then... comes listening, reading, prayer, being with Him, fellowship. The goal then becomes that His desires become ours, and serving becomes a joy, a privilege that we are given as a gift. It's not a job we are forced to do because He is God and deserves to be served, but a choice we make because we understand that He deserves to be served and we want to, because we love Him and know Him personally. As a wife serves her husband because she knows he deserves it in his position, not because the husband forces her with threats to hurt her. Neither does God trade with us, again the example of the marriage. A wife doesn't offer her body to trade for something she wants, but because she desires to care for her husband. We are the bride of Christ, he doesn't force us with threats, and we can't offer ourselves in payment to gain something for ourselves.
This I have decided is the foundation of my Relationship with Christ, My choice, His Gift, I was created to love and serve and work with Him to bring about a greater good then I have ever known.
Again. I am open to corrections or comments.
